A SURE TWIST OF FATE
Sunday, March 29, 2009 - 11:14 am
Even though you pray in the darkness
Someday there will come a light
That will break through all this confusion
But the chaos can be half the fun
So slice the strings
that are tying you down
& toss those crazy bitches to the ground
Be inspired by the morning
and enthralled by the night
where do I go?
I don't want to know right now.
I just want to live
I want to invade my skin
& get back whats rightfully mine
There's love inside that no one can touch
but they can take all the rest
All the keys are out of tune in my head
so find another song to play.
And all the glass that shattered
will piece together with your heart
maybe on some other planet
So warm inside your arms
So safe inside my head
& every thing you said
will never leave
I won't have to visit the headstones
I'll be able to just look into your eyes
I can see myself
& I'm not there yet
Pulling my body weight out of this ditch
Hanging from barbed wire
I have to get my head straight
even if that means
We're all going crazy.
The dim day
The calm before the storm
But I cannot feel the floor
Though the seeds wait
beneathe the frozen ground
Like winter, Death likes to linger round
I am on the mountain
Now prepare to fly
I can see diamonds in the blood
Like the stars glisten in your eye
There's not much further to go
yet the road is endless
There's not that much time left
yet we are timeless
All you have to do
Who will shoot the gun that
will sound off the riots?
Like flags on the raceway.
We are only half way there.
Only half way.
Cold stale air
It reminds me of love.
Like Jesus kissed your feet.
It'll all make sense in the end.
If not we can begin again.
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a metal smoothie
Striking on a cold day
My mind opens like a flower
on a dead branch
barely hanging on
Still so real
Trying to feel
We're so beautiful blank
& such tragic strangers
Stay and lets venture astray
Stay with intentions of enforcing
whats strictly razor sharp ambition.
I wed you to my dreams
I engage you to my sorrows
Sometimes nothing more
then what i like to do
somtimes nothing more
then breathing with you
Spring brings rain
Run through the forest
dripping from the trees new leaves
It reminds me of babies
Its all so lovely
Its all so.
Sunflowerdagger says Forgivness. . .
Wednesday, March 4, 2009 - 7:03 pm
Is a clean Canvas.
But the sin is still there underneath the white primer
No matter what. You cannot get away from yourself. Ever.
Don't we all surrender to reality?
Searching for the answer to it all.
Blistered from the sun
Froze by the moon
beneathe the skin
Pouring rains mute the
That seems to haunts us all
The world a void
God is the void
May he rest in peace
count the ticks
tally the tocks
Sitting in a room
keeping both eyes on the clock
Something has gone terribly wrong
& you don't believe your as great as you are.
Yet everything will be alright
Says the mother in me.
Maybe thats all she'll be
Will you allow children
to forget how to sing?
What am I feeling?
Why am I alive?
("shhhh" he says, "You'll see in time")
The body is fragile
yet seconds as this sheild
that cages a frail heart
& this faithless hope
Life fancies blood
Its his favorite drink
I'm on the worlds menu
Your on the menu every night
we lay on the silver platter
Blanketed in the seasonings
Drugged: into a deep sleep
Protects us from the rain
but coats acid to burn our skin
Might as well be a new religion.
Do you hear whispers in your skull?
Are you going crazy?
No, its :god:
Then its :god:
If the answer is voices
then your hearing voices
How do I erase myself from you?
How do I delete you?
Only asking in case I wanted to.
We could drive.
If we go off a cliff...
We could fly
Dance untill I find you
All the way down the trail
Please excuse my distance
Sometimes I can be cold as Hell.
I don't really like Venus
Jupiter has always brought me....
and Mars has a core of mirriors.
Earth doesn't seem real when compared to every thing else of all.
Worthless creatures to the swollen ego.
Humans have a "canibal soul" food chain
I feel like vermin sometimes
Keep a eye out for the mouse traps
They'll break more than just your fingers.
SO what cheddar do you prefer?
You might as well get what you want
when the metal snaps down
I shoved my self into a capsule the other day
But only one person gets to take me
I'm thinking its the only way
to really sink
underneath or into
some ones skin.
Wouldn't it be so nice to just loose your self
to dissolve helplessly into another
Poof! you are one.
Does no one have a big enough throat?
I guess we can just use fire.
As dead as the desk
As alive as the telephone
"Hi,Yea I uh would like the toll free number to hell."
Get your ass to the cross roads if its that important to you.
I'm a fvcking ceiling star
You can wander the side lines
Is above out of bounds?
Take anything you want
because in the .....
Sometimes black holes get activated
and there's really no turning back
Life does move kind of fast.
We are in a time machine.
Its all starcraft.
& your a sugar coated bullet in a cupcake gun baby.
Frosting foaming from your mouth
If someone loves you.
& they become a zombie. A.K.A (the living dead)
Well if they really love you
They won't eat you. They'll just rip into your neck and infect you so you can be apart of their zombie life. Or apart of their lack of life thereof.
P.S. You see? this is what I call true, or Zombie love.
P.S.2. If you don't have any relation to the individual zombie. Or your relationship can be summed up as "enimies"
Then you'd better whip out your chainsaw. There is no after living of non-living for you.
Its funny I always watch horror movies and the whole time I'm thinking to my self.
"Good lord, Sweet fvck, I shouldn't be watching this."
I mean it really can't be good for the soul.
Eats laziness away
Sit with someone under the sunshine
Tie some flowers into a headband or jewelry.
& just talk about the sunshine.
Its the greatest thing in this world
I love people that wear headphones and space them self so far off from society that they star singing loudly walking the city streets.
I don't even care if their singing a shitty song.
I just love that their singing.
The door is cracked
I see the glow of candlesticks
& I must go.
Sunday, February 22, 2009 - 6:43 am
I can't find my way to the paper
Found my hand with a pen
words spilling worlds
keyboards turning into pianos
of rhythmic static symphonies
That lay all dreamers to sleep in their
twilight stained skies
It pulls you in every direction
That thin layer of skin is all that separates us
..this frustrates me
so I invited you to dig in
Past those frail barriers
The burn turns black
The wind stays stale
Under my skin
Within my silent hell
Provoke and just like the angels
demons will come.
I tie my fears behind my back
I let the sun rise on confusion
I know its the chaos
What is society's dose?
Dose for the day
Dose for your way
I see this rock alley way... cool blue shades
Shadowed beings dancing.
We fvck until....
we break the dawn.
What makes you feel so alive?
Po*dunk....piss....pass me that vodka
...I work in 3
How do you start a day
with a night like this.
Sunday, February 15, 2009 - 12:01 am
A spider bit me on my lips.
Should I call this a kiss?
Back and forth
the window rolls
this curtain of strings
There will come a time where
this world will vanish.
To ask when is a fool's game
Because time owns no time.
There he lays
on the grave of my heart
& for me he slays the dove
Given no mind
Can you dig into me
Where the X marks the spot
Can I dig down deep
to your treasure?
To the gold that kings
and queens bathe in.
What is reality?
If everything dies.
Are your secrets locked
or engraved in your being?
Lies on your lashes
Blink the connection away.
Kiss in the darkness of the lid
for another night
From Hell, comes Heaven.
From Heaven, comes Hell.
Sunday, February 8, 2009 - 9:04 pm
I feel the earth crumble below my feet.
I can feel the machine.
Its only when I look in the peoples eyes
do I slow down my pace
& control my feet.
You don't fvcking know
the shit that I see.
Every day is a mourning
of the past
& eating doesn't feed the hunger
Lust: doesn't feel this void of love
I am with out you
but I can feel you inside of me.
Fvcking my soul
with every word
that your lips spill
Dear Starlite Sky,
Thursday, June 25, 2009 - 10:16 pm
I felt you fly
and I know your waiting
exactly where you belong
and for every living soul that you have inspired
will be waiting to join you in your palace.
And may all of gods love be with your Wife.
She loves you
in a way...more than I do.
You are now part of the ONE.
Rest in peace
and love be with you.
O DEAR MY
The world is getting high
sex waves goodbye to intellect
minds run dry
boxes full of white light
dead end trails
venture to the great divide
above the baby's crib
of frost coated death
peeling the skin
of a petal fair
to insulate your cold skin
enter my mind
before my pussy
give the earth some time
to match the rotation of the sky
love has an attraction curse
love has a beautiful eye
love is tagged with a sufficent price
of maybes and whys and tries
Tangled in this mess
baby of the wires
baby of the trees
baby of thought
baby of the begining
What baby do we bear?
the future holds
of midnight frights
baby baby baby
there is still good out there
cut out the beauty from the magazine of filth
paste them on your wall
an when the wolf start howling
know love is the strongest brick of all
To divide all the things we realize.
Tuesday, June 23, 2009 - 10:55 pm
Down and about
we travel the route
pale as the naked
smooth as the raven
Please plead for yourselves
I have found happiness in poverty
when blessings come
I'm still a vampire
stealing the blood from the Rich
transfusion into the poor
Riding through the mountains as you space travel to stay as young as young can be
when whats in your heart is all I need.
Make our world that much closer
white horses into the rising dawn
If you'd Only
Tuesday, June 9, 2009 - 11:49 pm
let things bee
your might understand that there is no exsistance in being.
That seperation of self allows the void to become whole.
what if every song was sang un-noticed?
Would you feel the friction on your souls ear?
would your heart skip a beat and notice the difference?
and if for just this once you could rest and stop all this "seeking."
Would you ever be able to dance amongst the very torture that has your entire purpose so enthralled?
and if for just this once
turn to me
And say every word that your tongue has been collecting.
What truth would you spoil me with?
Or what lie would you allow to rot me?
Can I offer you a drink?
Tuesday, June 9, 2009 - 11:21 pm
Some whiskey? ...Wine? How about a nice cold Cola...???
Please take a bite of the crackers and cheese,,,
All while doing so...
Tell me your story please.
"You see there was this man, There but entirely invisible. So caught up in his ways that...he failed to realize.. He failed to realize the only truth in his life."
You can sit in a chair, on a grey day...outside getting drenched by rain. But do you ever stop to realize that its actually raining?
Saturday, May 23, 2009 - 8:34 am
Every morning stands silent
amongst your song
and every one rises
with the distance
in your setting condition
of withered hope
and transparent confusion
The divine transcend
into the infinity
of the aged man
the aged god
of our transgressions
bloodline of the works
into & on this earth
your "world" will blend with the sky
as will I
as will I
what is & what isn't.
Monday, May 11, 2009 - 11:33 pm
it is not anger
not an outburst of previous
hatered that once dwelled
and festered inside on its own
what it is
is what it is.
their white gloves say that there is no dust on this picture
what it is
at night I am greeted by black clouds
wrapping around me in my bed
during day I am engulfed in white light
shining straight through my soul heart & head.
to be finished
is to lay down the love.
now that I am sure.
Burns across my intentions.
Sick, blind, weak men at my disposal.
I'm climbing this mountain.
Wishing for the peak of my aspirations.
The tumble is just as real as the climb.
& though my glittered, plastic mind
refuses to see it.
This world is just as ugly as it is divine.
I file the skin on my fingertips down.
As I drag them on either side of the corridor.
Carving all this havoc
Like cave drawings in hell.
Raindrops of blood
feeds the flower.
Tears, blood, or rain?
They all blend in
complimenting the storm.
My happiness is my saddness.
My blindness is my sight.
My entire meaining is this void.
This blackhole, I call my soul.
Sucking you in for the ride.
The Beauty with a beast.
Sunday, January 25, 2009 - 1:05 am
The stars that hide behind the moon. The stars no mathematician can measure to.At the speed of light, I call out to the sky for you. At the speed of light I fall. Fighting on the inside...a war. What do you wager your life for? Washed up on the soul like a smoothe shell. Washed up in the lava beds of my own rainbowed hell. Bitter-sweet the taste. Bitter-sweet the song. Putrid intentions.
Life then death....it comes.
Used. By the smiling vultures.
Loved by the faceless man.
Comforted by a loving voice.
Like a crazy man.
Are you the fool?
Are you the queen?
Can you take dirty blood
and make it clean?
A lady's house with antique trinkets.
Scattered, colorful, silly.
that had nothing to do with this
that was just a funny dream.
Links to lead to comfort.
Links that lead to you.
I close my eyes tight.
I don't get darkness.
Therefore I am & I think of you
People bathing in their creature comforts of their audited bliss
money money money
what do you think about money?
its only real because we made it so.
An illusion we can't erase.
I just see a blood stained paper.
Once again, blood stained cotton.
The 7 deadly sins.
Do you believe they are.
What if they all become one?
Would that be the ultimate crime?
Or the perfect behavior?
Its 1:17a.m...I've had to much company today....too many bodies.
So look at me know I'm a bit disconnected.
I'm not a robot so where can I build a bridge tonight?
What do you all think about whats been going on?
On here especially.
Is every one happy?
This is sunflower checking in, with her weird ways.
So it looks like we lost a fellow pumpkin head. I consider you all this strange extended family. Honestly I've been really sad lately. I feel like a flame has burnt out.
I know we all think this shouldn't of happened but it really did. Its really about what you say...even online. You can take any online forum or site as superficial networking. Or misleading mingling... but fact is, your still dealing with very real people. & people...well, we're all very sensitive. Sometimes they are shouting through the screen...but we mistakenly blow it off. Like a online *cold shoulder*
Hold on to whatever it is that makes you happy.
Like a child that clings to their teddy-bear as they face the monsters in the dark.
...jeezus I want to hear some happy stories.
Some corny jokes or something.
me wuvs you.